October is a hard month.
Each year it brings me more perspective and October is always one of the more reflective times of the year for me, but it doesn’t make it less hard. I’ve always loved October, the beginning of fall, and Halloween… but it took on a different meaning 13 years ago. Hard things come up unscheduled, on top of each other, and when we least expect it… and life keeps moving, ready or not. As I continue to grow on my journey, I think that’s the lesson. We have to do hard things sometimes when we don’t want to, but there are lessons behind them that we cannot even dream of knowing today – we just have to keep working through them.
I woke up today on October 13th, 2019 alone. I’m alone in my house, but at the same time, not at all lonely. I’m grateful for the fullness of my life. I thought about the day 13 years ago that changed my life and I cried for that scared young girl who thought she could do it on her own. I cried for the woman today waking up in her bed who thinks she needs to do it on her own. And, I cried for the future woman, my future self, who can’t imagine doing it on her own. Continue reading October 13th Brings 13 (Lucky, Hardworking) Years
As I prepare for my speaking engagement about eating disorders and athletes, I have been having this thought (fear!) in regard to these young people I’ll soon address:
They might think that eating disordered behaviors and thoughts are normal.
Let’s think about that for a minute. What I’m saying is that the thoughts of wanting to become smaller, fitter, and more appealing are WIDESPREAD… and the behaviors a person will engage in to achieve those things, are normal. Continue reading Are We All Doomed in Eating Disorder Culture?
Last time I talked about doing away with a gym and competitive exercise. No calorie counting, no timers, no pace goals, no super-fit competitor on the machine next to me…
I’d say it’s been almost two years since I have been a part of a regular gym. On occasion, I pop into local fitness classes or college weight rooms to escape the weather or mix things up… but as a regular gym enthusiast (and because I still see so many benefits in exercise!), I found my stride at home and in the great outdoors. Continue reading My Garage Gym Workout Essentials
I struggled for a long time with exercise, and it came as a surprise in all the different ways I did: too much, too little, no motivation, a lot of motivation with an asterisk* (from my exercise addiction days)… finding a balance was difficult not only in my body and schedule but (mostly) in my mind. Continue reading The (Mindful) Exercise Equation
“You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy. So let them go, let go of them. I tie no weights to my ankles.” ― C. JoyBell C.
Are you a fitness-/calorie-/step-/mile-counter? Do you have all the gadgets and/or have a log for all these things? I’m seriously interested in how these work for you and how you use them to your advantage…
I’m going to talk to you about my struggles with numbers – with exercise and food – and steps I’ve taken to lose the calculations that drove me crazy for so long. Here’goes! Continue reading How I Stopped Allowing Numbers To Rule My Life